As the days gets closer the more freaked out i am! As of today, i’m 37.5 weeks pregnant!
I am due so soon ~ its just a matter of days now. Baby Yuna on the other hand is growing very well. She has grown chubbier all around until she has no space to move. Almost every visit to the doctors we were unable to see how she looks like as all her comfy spots covers up her face. During the most recent visit to the doctors, she already weighs 2.9kg and is still growing! woohooo~ *so exciting to see her grow bigger and heavier* No doubt it has become a daily challenge for me with a heavy baby in the tummy it gets rather uncomfortable when sleeping and walking. But its all worthy~
…. however, my thoughts were a mess a week back when the doctors told me that baby yuna is currently in breech position and needs to have a Csec instead!
how is that possible? whats wrong with my little angel? why isn’t she turning? All the millions of questions popped in and out of my head.
The doctors has given me time to wait for a miracle to happen. It is a 95% possibility for her to make a big summersault and have her head turned down now and her time is running out. 3 more days to go is all she have left and by the 18th of December we have to book a date for the big day.
Mentally i’m still prepping myself. We’ve picked the date and time for the surgery. Somehow i have a feeling she’s won’t be turning now and a Csec is the method she wishes her mommy to have her out in this world.
I used to think that epidural was bad! And that it will hurt like hell plus. But now, what scares me the most is that Csec is going to be done while i’m awake but half paralyze! Did you know the procedure actually takes between 30 min to an hour!!!! How is that not scary? Gotta be awake the whole time!!! Now as i compare epidural with a Csec, i think epidural is peanuts for the few seconds of pain.
Non the less, the excitement that i will be seeing my little angel in a few days time still hasn’t exactly kicked in to me yet. On the contrary, everyone else around me seems to be more excited, especially the daddy to be! Taking things one step at a time is all i can think of. To go through that one hour operation is what i need to do first before any other feelings can come through to me.
Although so~ Baby Yuna knows that her mommy loves her very much and will do just about anything to bring her in this world safe and sound.