As i patiently wait till the day i meet my little princess ( 86 more days to go ). I can’t help but to ponder what kind of life i’ll end up living as. What’s going to happen to my life, my career, my dreams. Must i give up all as i enter into motherhood?
I stopped working for the professional industry for almost 3 years now. During these years i had the pleasure to venture into all sorts of business opportunities that came my way. Meanwhile, i was exploring into the different lines and possibilities of new hobbies and interest with all the time in the world in my hands. I tried anything and everything that came my way.. until i realized that i was going to be a mom.
The first 5 months of my pregnancy was not easy with dizzy spells and endless vomiting. (warning to all women : morning sickness means vomiting at all mornings from different time zones). Well, during that stage i felt so cheated thinking that it will be just the morning. Non the less, i began to enjoy my second trimester more when i became 6 months pregnant. By this time i was free from vomiting but i had other pregnancy symptoms to conquer. ‘FORGETFULLNESS’ is one of it. I’m no longer as sharp as i used to be and it seems as though my brains just refuse me to remember things. IT SUCKS BIG TIME!!! Today, as i move into my third trimester i am still trying to overcome my pregnancy symptoms and i heard there’s more on the way including crazy weight gain, water retention and many more.
Non the less, i can’t help but to ponder what am i going to do after my baby pops out from me. Am i really going to be just a ‘mother’ ?!?! A housewife?!?!
The term ‘housewife’ reminds me of a career that i told myself never ever go into! But sad to admit, it seems that way.
People say, once your baby is out you’ll have a new perspective of life and ones would do anything to be a housewife and stay at home with their little ones. Then again, personally i think that is just not me. What happen to self satisfaction and the sense of achievement? Wouldn’t one feel useless and backdated if we were to only revolve our life around our children? Before i was pregnant, even though i was part time doing my own little thing i still had time to learn more new things that i was interested in. Embarking in my creativity side, fashion, language and health. I was able to try new things and to explore various area to find my passion of drive in life. Thanks to my ever wonderful husband for being supportive. Is it wrong to continue doing so with a baby on the way? Or when the baby is here?
As a mother i want to mould my own children.. to guide them into this world.. to love..and to lead them to a successful life ahead… what better way to set the perfect example for her through my own actions and achievement, right?
As i ponder deeper, i visualize myself on doing something other than being a mom… having a business but with flexi hours so i can be a stay at home mom is something that i will need to put my next focus on. At the same time have a sense of financial stability and achievement for myself. I seek for strength and growth in oppose to be stagnant after having children. Although saying so, i have my limitations as i ponder in deeper into my thoughts for a solution.
I wonder how my next journey in life would be. I hope one day i can be a Power Mom.